I'm writing this instead of applying to jobs

The LSAT's over, and I'm back to my old tricks (blogging included). It feels much worse the second time around. Sure, the two part-time jobs I used to have sucked. But at least I was making some spending money and at least I had something to do during the day. Now it's no more jobs, no more LSAT studying, just me and my broken dreams again.

I'm not sure what to make of my LSAT performance. I know I did well on the one section that gave me the most trouble in practices (the Analytical Reasoning section; you know how those go--Ursula, Victor, Wilmer, Xenia, Yu and Zacharias are sitting in a row; Ursula is in seat 5, Yu cannot sit next to Wilmer, yada yada yada). Reading Comp was fine too, but the other two sections felt a little shaky. Now I have to stew for three weeks until I get my score by email. It's unsettling to think that my performance on this test may have an enormous effect on the rest of my natural life. Do well and be a lawyer, or do poorly and [dot dot dot question mark].

There's not one single aspect of applying to jobs that I find enjoyable. I don't like searching for them; I don't like tailoring cover letters (I especially don't like tailoring cover letters just because I'm so sick of revising and submitting the same vacuous dreck over and over again); I don't like the idea of competing with hundreds of other people for the jobs I apply to; I don't like following-up; I don't like getting offers for jobs that suck; I don't like getting rejected for jobs that I really want.

It's just now starting to dawn on me how much my LSAT studying was a distraction from my re-unemployment. Now I've got zip. Nothing on the horizon, no prospects, no leads. Jack shit. How long will it take this time? Should I bother setting a time frame? I feel like I should have something by the end of the month, but how reasonable is that? By any normal standards, it's probably perfectly reasonable. By my grandiose expectations, who knows?

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I spent the day up in Cambridge on Saturday (sorry I missed you again, Lisa; I'll call you soon). While there, I had an interesting encounter:

I was with my friends Brian and Liz. Liz was looking stunning in a green "party dress" and cowboy boots. We were having coffee and a nice chat in a smallish cafe outside of harvard Square. There were about twelve seats in the place, all of which were full.

At one point during a (nauseatingly boring) discussion of Brian's career ambitions (only kidding, bro), I looked over at the counter and noticed a tall, scruffy-looking guy ordering a drink. I thought to myself, "Ha. Isn't that funny: that guy looks a little like Ben Affleck, and we're in Boston." I paused for a moment, furrowed my brow, and took another look. This Boston Red Sox cap-wearing fellow was, in fact, Mr. Ben Affleck. The co-author of my "favorite" film was ordering coffee five yards from where I was sitting!

At this point I thought, "Gosh, wouldn't it be funny if Jennifer Garner were here too?" At that moment, a slender young woman (her figure mostly hidden under a navy raincoat; it was a wet day in Lamebridge) walked up beside big Ben. Could it be? It was! Ben Affleck and Jennifer Garner were perusing the biscotti case within spitting distance from where we were sitting! But hold on: what that a baby stroller she was pushing? It was! Baby Bennifer! Good gracious!

At this point, Brian and party-attired Liz noticed my withdrawal from the conversation. In as hushed a tone as I could manage, I informed them that we were in the presence of two fabulously famous and wealthy actors. They were impressed, but they're no starf***ers.

At that point it would have been impossible to continue our conversation, and I didn't want to make a scene, so we decided to leave. I got a good peek at the infant Garner-Affleck on our way out (in deference to Ben and Jen's privacy, I will decline to provide a description).

As I mentioned, the few seats in the cafe were all occupied when they walked on. I can only hope that they took our departure as an act of courtesy and went and enjoyed their beverages at our recently-vacated table.